Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Deceitful me...

This past couple weeks I have felt down and out and when that happens I seemed to ‘listen’ more. I have been battling the frustrations of pain and nausea, miserable. A trip to the E.R and upper scope later everything is healthy and they are thinking it’s my gallbladder but this is not why I am writing today. During this period, of my fleshly weakness I began to doubt myself and my relationship with my Father, my Love. I heard many different things from the father of lies such as, ‘He doesn’t care about you enough, you must not be His child or why would you be in so much pain, etc…” I think you get the point because I’m rather positive that we have all been there.

In my weakness “I” allowed these thoughts to radiate in my mind, I allowed them to make me question myself and my relationship with Jesus. And I woke up and decided NOPE, Not in my life and not in mind: I am Christ’s daughter; he loves me no matter what my circumstances are and does not desire me to be down and out.
Romans 8:16 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.
So when the enemy tries to bring us down, to make us feel unworthy, don’t allow it! We have to know in our knower (My dad always says that) that we were made new in Christ. 2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!

NOW THAT IS FREEDOM!!

I would say that I am very confident in knowing where my relationship with Christ is, every day is another opportunity to glorify His name in my life. Why I needed to be reminded of this is beside me, but it is refreshing to overview some of my favorite verses, my favorite thoughts to be soaked into my mind and renew them in my life.

1 Corinthians 12:7-10 7-10Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn't get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan's angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn't think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,
My grace is enough; it's all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become. 2 Timothy 1:7
7 For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.

Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

The last verse is a new favorite because to walk in the joy and peace that my Savior offers is better than swimming in a river of chocolate!
May the Lord fill your heart mind, body and soul with His peace and Joy this day, which is a gift. I pray you will walk in His light and bear much fruit for God’s kingdom. And when satan provokes on the deceitful self, may you remember that God gave us a Spirit of POWER to walk in peace in Christ name.

It’s a choice…. Daily I choose to pick up my cross and walk in freedom.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Empowerment

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Where in the world has this year went is it really Spetember??? OK now that that is out here we go….

Empowerment!
My eyes have recently been open to all the overly ‘neediness’ around us, in our society and even in our churches. Do we have needs, absolutely and I am not discounting the needs that are truly needs- do you follow?? Have we forgotten to teach our children the difference between wants and needs??? We/I probably need a reminder also.

What in the world has happened to doing something, feeling like you have achieved and then challenging ourselves to something great.….. As God’s children, heir’s to His kingdom we need to walk in great and accomplish. Knowing that His blessings are more than we can imagine, we win!

Romans 8:16-27 16 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. 17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

So from now all you can call me Princes Britney.... OK back to my blog….

Stop falling down on our knees in defeat! Stop relying on the world and start relying more on God. If/when we get caught up in depending on others we take God off his Throne and say we hold these other things in a higher value. Really what does the world have to offer more/better than what God has to offer?

In Christ we have the power to overcome!
Jeremiah 1:19 They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD.

Matthew 6:19-20 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

I know this to be true: if we would walk in the victory that God has already claimed we can accomplish anything we put our mind to. If we try to do it on our own, we will fail miserably every time.

Matthew 6: 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Hint: The Key word first…. Now read that verse again emphasizing the word FIRST!

Lord, please take me to a place, remind me, thump me on my head to always come to you first, A MW - Britney, as a family and as your servants open to your answers.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Lately...

I have not posted a blog in a long time; lately I have been so inspired to write again, about what? Not sure but I’m just going to start.
A brief catch over the past year, Eli just celebrated his 1 year at New Hope which has become in saturated with servants and has become a church family to us. Elijah is tearing it up gymnastics, he thrives! He is so focused, loves it and truly has a talent. He also started soccer last night- he is quit the busy bee. Miley is growing too fast, she is very smart and when she puts her mind to something wow! Her imagination runs crazy it’s pure joy listening to her play with her babies or “Sthisters.”
My crazy adventures have been full of fun, trying times but most importantly God has taught me to give him my schedule and be obedient to do the things he’s asked me and learn to say no to things….
This past year I have been running the children’s department at church, running our woman’s ministry, I started homeschooling Elijah this year and all the other things that fall in line with being a mom and being me. I am still decorating cakes and my new love and joy is cooking from scratch. I have begun to bake, cook and prepare from scratch…and store/freeze. I can now walk into a grocery store and completely bypass the frozen section and the canned food isle, and boxed food isles… it is a great feeling for me to know what is in my family’s food (and safest for Miley). And I am thankful that God has given me time to be able to accomplish this. I understand that is not for everyone so by no means am I patting myself on the back or saying its wrong of others. I am merely just talking about me and my family personally. I have a lot to learn in this area but every day is a new adventure.
One of my biggest ‘projects’ has been homeschooling. When Eli and I started to talk about this as a real option I truly doubted myself. And I still do! If it were not for my Savior I still probably could not accomplish this. If he calls- he will equip (Even in homeschooling). Elijah is in an enrichment program so he goes to school 2 days a week for all the ‘electives.’ When I have him at home we do the core work, wow, it is absolutely amazing how much his young mind can absorb. I think most of the time he’s really teaching me- yes….I think I’m learning more than him! Crazy right??!! I am learning more than how to classify a sentence but to be patient, loving and really listen….and really enjoy the time I get to spend with him.
Let’s get serious… Boring yes but God had shown me a ton lately! And it’s always personal. I don’t blog to brag on my family but to share what I am learning and how I am growing in my relationship with my Father, My savior!
I always hear people talk about who they most represent in the bible but I have always felt like I couldn’t narrow it down to 1 person and/or at different points in my life I have resemble the heart of different biblical people. Right now, I have been on what I called my Romans road…. I have been engulfed in Romans and Corinthians written by the apostle Paul. Reevaluated every aspect of my life and asking God to reveal to me the areas I need more of Him. Less of me and more of you! Very cliché but so true, Paul’s heart amazes me! He tells it like it is and truth and nothing more or less.
I think the church in general is hurting, we are so caught up in trying to please people in the world that we are forgetting to preach/teach gospel- even if it offends. I am not referring to all churches but many and if we are not completely surrendering to the Lord than who are we surrendering to- the world? We can argue all day over what style our church should be implementing but in the end it pointless and does nothing but cause dimension in the church. Paul lays it out there, exactly what our church should look like. If I could sum it up, I do it like this ‘We need to be open to allowing the Holy Spirit to move in our church without any restrictions! No matter what denomination you are.
Don’t believe me? Pick up the bible and read it for yourself. The Holy Spirit is the most vital gifts he gives us now and we shut him out of our lives because we are afraid of what he may do.
I have had this weight on my shoulder of not wanting anything but Gods word. I don’t want extra workbooks I just want to pick up my bible and dig in, praying that God will reveal to me what he desires for my life, my family’s life.
This has become my daily prayer from Francis Chan’s Book The Forgotten God, page 37, “I want to consistently live with an awareness of His strength. I want to be different today from yesterday as the fruit of the Spirit becomes more manifest in me. I want to live so that I am truly submitted to the Spirit’s leading on a daily basis. Christ said it is better for us that the Spirit came, and I want to live like I know that is true. I don’t want to keep crawling when I have the ability TO FLY.” (All caps on fly is my emphasis.) AMEN~

My prayer and the church of God’s prayer, may the Holy Spirit be free to run wild in our lives.

Friday, August 6, 2010

Change

I have not been blogging for awhile, obviously, because God was working in me and in my family. The past couple months have been full of change and continuously challenging us to get plugged into God and allow Him and only Him to light the path more than ever before. God showed me there would be a time again that I could continue sharing my ‘madness’ but for that moment, it was one-on-one time.

Let’s start back in May 2010, Eli was ordained in the Church of the Nazarene. Very exciting - it was the most powerful service I have even been in – where God Himself was there - no doubt in my mind. During the Ordination, all of the Ordained Elders in the church laid hands over Eli and myself and prayed for us… I wish there were words to express the feeling of some of the Holiest men of God surrounding us and lifting up their voices on our behalf. It was an amazing powerful choir of prayers…. I walked away from that feeling as though I had been baptized and cleansed deep down to my very inner parts. And asking myself, can I get that every day!!!!!!

A few weeks before the Ordination the Lead Pastor in our Church resigned, which is always interesting to see where God will take the church from that point on.

We began to seek God and what that meant for our family and he told us to ‘stay the course.’ So that is exactly what we continually focused on. The call and where God had us - pressing on into the ministries that were already in place. It could have been very easy to live in the unknown and veer off track - but God was clear, press on and ‘stay the course.’

June 23, 2010 we had our first interview as a family, for the Lead Pastorate position at New Hope. I remember standing there with Eli before we walked into Paradise Bakery and we entered into prayer, only asking God that His plans be engaged no matter what that meant, staying, leaving…. It was in His hands and with that came the most overwhelming peace.

That night, after the interview, the secretary of the Board called Eli and extended the call to him as Lead Pastor. Very exciting but yet full of so many emotions…..

They announced us as the candidate for Pastoral Family on June 27, 2010, voted July 11, 2010 and Eli was installed as Lead Pastor July 25th 2010 of New Hope Church.

That morning before the vote, we were asked by numerous people if we were nervous. It was a unique situation as we were already a part of the church and being there though all this. Regardless, I can honestly say we weren’t. The outcome of all of the transition in our life has always been and will always be Gods will - PERIOD. And with that comes more peace than words can express.

When I started this blog I wasn’t sure specifically where I was going with it... now I do! As our family begins this new chapter in our lives, I ask that you would commit to praying for us, our church family and the future - that will always rest in the path that God has laid.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

God has a Plan

Jeremiah 29:11-13 (New Living Translation)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. 12 In those days when you pray, I will listen. 13 If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

God's Hands

The last few days have been extremely trying on us, it’s never easy when your baby is sick. We got home early A.M. and I laid in bed wide awake knowing that I needed to make sure Miley got her meds in 2 hours… I found myself surrounded in God’s presence, thankful that he always gets us through. As I lay there watching Miley sleep peacefully and watching her little lungs work so hard to take one simple breath, her little ribs would surface with each inhale. God allowed me to see his hands, Gods hands. He showed me his strong hands that were her lungs helping her breathe. He took away the worry that I had for her and of all the hard work her little body had to do, that most people take for granted.

It is the hardest thing as a mom, watching your little one struggle to breathe and there is nothing that I can physically do to make it any easier. I am beyond thankful that God gives us discernment in situations. It was in one of these moments that God took me to James 1:2-3 “When trouble comes your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.”

It’s in these moments when we feel so weak that satan tries to beat us up the most. He began to flood my thoughts with sorrow and comments that people have made, if only I never had kids they would not have to suffer. God began to speak louder reminding me that He sent His son for great purpose knowing that he would suffer in the end. Wow, put life in perspective a little. The point is, God may choose to heal Miley completely, he may choose to heal you completely, but what I know is He turns everything to point to him. Romans 12:2 “2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Miley’s life has great purpose, as does mine, as does yours- we have to find it and all we have to do is seek God.

We can rise above everything the world says is crappy and be thankful for that gifts that God gives us, bringing me to my favorite verses: 2 Corinthians 12:9 (The Message) “7-10Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn't get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan's angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn't think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me, My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.”

Thursday, April 1, 2010

It’s really April?

That’s amazing to me- where in the world did the month of March go to???? I traveled a lot for me, busy,busy, busy with Elijah's school, gymnastics, swim class, church, friends, birthday’s etc… Visitor’s from out of town and many other activities that accompanied this past month to go by so fast.

I must say, that in the midst of the craziness of March- I realized one thing to be exact. Spending daily time in God’s word in an absolute must- I don’t know how I would survive without the comfort and wisdom that from it. There were many days that the ‘need to be done’ seemed to easily get in the way but in reality – spending time with God must be the first 'need' in our daily list of ‘to do’s.’

I woke up this morning not knowing what I was going to read next, hello, the light bulb went on…. We are in the midst of Holy Week. So I began in Matthew in Judas betrayed Jesus and Jesus was sent to Pilate for his conviction and I realized something for the first time. Jesus was amazingly calm- OF COURSE HE WAS! Why wouldn’t he be – if anyone had God's peace and hope it was Him. That’s what I desire is God’s will, which comes with a peace and hope that is unexplainable in words. I am positive it was not an easy road for Jesus, we know this in chapter 26: 39 When Jesus asked God to ‘take this cup.” He knew what was coming- but yet he still did it, for me.

And you.

My bible references verse 39 by saying, “Jesus did not die serenely as many martyrs have. He was no mere martyr; he was the Lamb of God bearing the penalty of the sins of the entire human race. The wrath of God was turned loose on him. Only this can adequately explain what took place in Gethsemane.”

Tomorrow I continue on the Journey to the cross….

I am thankful that somebody loved me enough to die for me.